Do you remember high school? Do you WANT to remember high school? Well, I think for me the renovation of self came in college. I grew up with the same people, in the same classes for 10 years. It's really hard to reinvent one's self after that long of a period. So when I left the fish bowl of high school and ventured into the ocean of college, I decided that it was time for a change.
That change actually didn't happen till my second year of college when my high school relationship of 3 years ended. Let me tell you, I was a wreck. I had isolated myself so much that I had no one to talk to, no one to confide in. It was horrible. Bean, don't ever let a boy come between you and your friends. Keep being who you are. Include everyone. Don't shut them out because one day you'll need them more than ever.
April came around and I started to hang out with my coworkers quite a lot and decided that who I was wasn't good enough to be loved. I dated...who am I kidding...I slept around quite a lot. I got hurt and I hurt people.
That change actually didn't happen till my second year of college when my high school relationship of 3 years ended. Let me tell you, I was a wreck. I had isolated myself so much that I had no one to talk to, no one to confide in. It was horrible. Bean, don't ever let a boy come between you and your friends. Keep being who you are. Include everyone. Don't shut them out because one day you'll need them more than ever.
April came around and I started to hang out with my coworkers quite a lot and decided that who I was wasn't good enough to be loved. I dated...who am I kidding...I slept around quite a lot. I got hurt and I hurt people.
That's why I left San Diego. I couldn't handle who I was becoming. My relationship with God was me hiding and not seeking him for his help. When I moved up to Washington, I met a gal at work who asked me to go to church for Easter. God. Met. Me. There. Right. Where. I. Was.
I'm so grateful for his words:
I'm so grateful for his words:
The old life is gone; a new life has begun! 2 Corinthians 5:17b NLT
I screw up every day. Every. Single. Day. Sometimes twice on Sundays. Those words are words of redemption for my heart. I belong to Christ and I am a new creation. I am HIS creation. I am HIS.
I have to "let the Spirit renew {my} thoughts and attitude." Ephesians 4:22 And when I do, I only grow closer. Sometimes it feels like one step forward, two steps back. But knowing that Christ is refining me and making me into something better every day, is a humbling experience.
Just remember, you are a new creation. You are HIS.
I have to "let the Spirit renew {my} thoughts and attitude." Ephesians 4:22 And when I do, I only grow closer. Sometimes it feels like one step forward, two steps back. But knowing that Christ is refining me and making me into something better every day, is a humbling experience.
Just remember, you are a new creation. You are HIS.